Thursday, September 4, 2008

Week 3 - On the List - And some thoughts

I am in my third week waiting for a heart. It could be up to a year so I don't have any anxieties. Both my wife and I continue to feel the comfort and peace we had hoped for in this process.

We've been fortunate not to have Lynnette working for the past 16 months because we've enjoyed the benefits of COBRA insurance. She loves being a stay at home mom and I love having her around. Eden and I are sad to see her going back to work so we have good medical coverage for what lies ahead. Lynnette works in the Newborn Intensive Care Unit at the new Inter-mountain Medical Center. I know that if I had a child in the N.I.C.U. I couldn't ask for a better, kinder, more beautiful nurse. She is very good at what she does. And I admire her abilities. It is a difficult job.

We have an incredible family who is going to help us out when Lynnette works. My daughter, with all of her beautiful energy of life, can be tiring and ware you down. But, I think every parent understands this whether you're in heart failure or not. So I look forward to spending a lot of time with Eden before I get the call.

In regards to waiting for a heart and experiencing the symptoms of heart failure, I've known challenges like these throughout my life and I believe it is because of our faith in a loving and understanding God that my family always seems to grow closer together during these difficult times.

You can't know the sweetness in life without tasting the bitterness of life. There is no reason to blame God for what we are subject to. I believe we chose to experience earthly life as part of a three act play in the eternal nature of things. We are in the second act. God knows what's ahead for us in the third and final act. Like any loving parent, he loves seeing us grow and mature from the choices we make. But above all, at times we make poor choices or are hurt by the choices of others, and like the child who falls from a bike and cries for their mother and father, there is a loving Savior who is there to wipe away our tears and heal our wounds.

8 comments:

  1. Nice oxygen mask while driving! Made me laugh! We think of you guys often, thanks for your thoughts on the Savior.

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  2. You and your sweet family are in my thoughts and prayers. You don't know me we have only met once but your music has blessed my life in ways you'll never know. Thank you...and yes, the Gospel is true!

    from a fan and a sister in the gospel.

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  3. I love Lynnette- She is such an inspiration to myself and my Family. It is amazing how we have once again connected after all these years. I met her again in the NICU almost 6 years ago- she was an awesome NICU nurse and I again had the honors to have her privledge again- I think we just wanted to see her again:)

    She took care of my now 3 year old; I have been fortunate to spend time with her and Eden, what an amazing Mom and darling daughter who is so proud to show and tell her Dad what she did that day.

    My heart is with your family= my prayers are with you, I love your family: your a great family and Paul your an awesome example to me- you guys have been through so much with yourself and with other struggles, may you have the strength to get through this and know that I am here to help with anything and with Eden.
    love you guys..

    I cannot believe it has been 3 weeks.

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  4. September 6, 2008
    Dear Paul and Lynette,
    You have always been such a joy and inspiration to me and Shelly and Sara. We love you!
    I have no doubt that Heavenly Father is tenderly watching over each of you. Dave had the same team of heart surgeons and they are the best as you know! I am fasting for you and your family tomorrow and will keep you all in my constant prayers. I know you have lots of family...but please know that I am available day or night to watch Eden or do whatever you need.
    I believe in miracles!
    Love, Debbie Castleton 801-633-2005

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  5. what a beautiful girl! The last time we saw her was when she was 5 months old. It has been too long. Than you for your testimony and the example your family is to us. We love you guys.

    P.S. Damion is still laughing at you driving with an oxygen mask... I think it reminded him of our lunch in Park city with you guys when Lynette leaned over the table to tell us that she didn't think you always got enough oxygen to the brain...with you sitting right there.

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  6. Paul,

    Your story, and your outlook in this trying time is truly inspiring. Our thoughts, and prayers are with you and your wonderful family during this time. We know that you are in the Lord's hands and will be taken good care of. We hope that when the time comes for our little Carter to have heart surgery (that we know will come someday) that we can have the same peace of mind that you and Lynnette have. Thanks for being such an inspiration...

    Ryan and Melissa Willden (Melissa works with your wife at IHC.)

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  7. Paul,
    What a wonderful site for us to keep up with you and your beautiful family. Eden has grown so since we left for our Mission.
    You are in our prayers. We wish you the best and pray for your pager to go off soon!
    We will see you in December.
    Stay strong in your faith and health.
    We love you
    Elder & Sister Waldron
    Adelaide, Australia Mission

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  8. lynette/paul please know we would love to watch Eden if you ever need us. Canyon would love to play. We are up here near the hospitals if you ever need us.

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